Sunday, December 15, 2013

Introspection & Preparation

Whole Foods Salad Bar and Miso Tahini Sauce as dressing:
 I only remember to take a dose once a week or so, but it does seem to be doing good things.
 Oatmeal with Brown Sugar & Cinnamon, Black Coffee
 Mini Grocery Haul:

This weekend has been one of reflection.  I've been thinking a lot about how I deal with a crisis, my expectations of others and myself, as well as the changes I've made internally (in a variety of areas) the last few years. This Tuesday will be my last session with my therapist.  I considered scaling back appointments, and returning as needed, a while ago. However, at about the same time, she revealed that she was ready for a change, and leaving private practice at the end of this year.  I continued with my twice monthly appointments, and the last few have been focused on my progress, finding closure as I take off the training wheels and speed ahead into the unknown.  I know that I'll be okay, and I know that I will never truly be "finished" working on myself - I just hope to have the grace and strength to continue the work without self-destructing when life seems hopeless, defeating, and lonely.  Arms wide, heart open, eyes looking ahead - here I go. . .

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  1. Thanks for the reminder about the ACV... I ought to drink more of that myself, especially since I can never remember to do the lemon juice thing. The salad looks perfect, and the grocery run is pretty similar to what I'm gonna go grab in a few minutes.
    It's always hard to get a real impression of someone on the internet but you are a lovely person who seems to be on a fairly even keel. It seems like yoga has been helping you rethink yr reactions and not be so hard on yrself. The name of the blog is Ingrid Improves, not Improved; eveything is a continuing battle, we just need reminders sometimes to stay in the present. Good luck in the great wide open... You'll do fine, yr not alone :)

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    1. I'm not a lemon fan - other than freshly squeezed lemonade with vodka in the summer. ;) The ACV definitely has a lot of wonderful properties, I just need to get in the habit during the week, and not just the weekends! Hopefully I channel some Maud-inspired meals with these grocery items!

      Thank you so much for the beautiful sentiments! I am so touched! It's hard to be vulnerable in a public forum, but assurances such as these make me feel brave enough to continue sharing these struggles (or improvements!). I agree that yoga has been so helpful, and it will continue to be my "therapy" for the future!

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  2. Your Salad looks like mine (except for the Corn).

    I'm with FF. I'm sure you'll keep improving. If not, I'll be the first to point out a problem.

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    1. I couldn't believe they had roasted corn on the salad bar - I had to add it!

      Ha ha! Thanks, Shen - happy to know I can count on you! ;)

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  3. What a beautiful post, thank you for sharing this with us. I agree with FF and Shen as well... life is a constantly changing journey and there will always be room for growth and change. You are a lovely person with a huge heart and a level head. You seem to have made a lot of positive changes in your life (yoga has probably made a huge difference I think) and I am confident that you will continue to find your way down this path with firm footing. And most importantly, you have a really strong network of people rooting for you and that are here to support you. Please know you can always come to me if you need me (although I'm kind of a mess myself, haha!).

    Your meals and haul all look delicious! I'm an oatmeal junkie in the winter, I've been loving it too. I don't know if you are into toppings, but if you are.. try oatmeal with cinnamon, banana, walnuts (or almonds if you prefer), raisins and coconut. Just a sprinkling of each will make the best bowl of oatmeal ever!

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    1. Sarah, your support was so encouraging, I nearly cried! Thank you for allowing me to feel comfortable enough to share these thoughts, and for your willingness to be there. Know that the feeling is mutual!

      We'll see how tomorrow goes, and it's not like I'm losing a friend as she has told me I can email to say hello - which I will, when I reach certain milestones! I'll give a little update on the farewell.

      Ooh, yes I think I've seen that bowl of oatmeal and toppings you mention - I will absolutely get the ingredients to try that soon! I hope you've enjoyed some during these chilly days on the east coast!

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  4. I tried to comment on Sunday night and it wasn't working for some reason.....

    Anyway, I was saying how I think it's wonderful that you're self reflecting. I do it a lot, especially at this time of year & actually did quite a bit of it last week (which is why I've been a bit quiet). It sounds like you're very aware of who you are and that alone is a huge step in reigning yourself in when times get demanding. :)

    How on earth do you choke down the ACV? I've tried and failed. It leaves me feeling nauseous for hours after.

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    1. I hope that Blogger gets their act together and lets you comment! Ack! So frustrating!

      Introspection is absolutely important! Thank you so much for your encouragement, and I hope to be able to weather the storm when faced with life's demands. Too bad it can't always be easy! :)

      I cut it with water, usually 3:1 and a little maple syrup - it does the opposite for me, ending my nausea! However, my brother's ACV reaction has quite the opposite effect. . .

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